Reflection of the Sun
Chapter 2: Did That Just Happen?
Crystal tears flow nonstop from Namtarn’s golden-brown eyes, soaking her thick black lashes and dripping onto her pristine white blouse. The sad tilt to her full lips speak of her feelings more than the words she can barely say. Most people look like a mess when they cry but not her. The delicate blush just adds to her beauty. It’s no wonder I had a crush on her for so long. My first love.
“I don’t know what happened, Oon.” Her lower lip trembles as she looks up at me, her fingers anxiously playing with the empty tea cup in front of her. “I know he’s been busy and distracted. He arrived late to several of our dates or canceled them altogether, but I thought it was just because it’s our last year. There’s papers and projects and internships to deal with. I never complained, Oon.”
There’s nothing I can say to comfort her; nothing that will make this alright. Settling my hand over her smaller one, I move her cup away and hand her the clean handkerchief from my pocket. She takes it with a small smile of gratitude and delicately pats the tears away. It doesn’t do much good since new ones make a fresh track down her pale cheeks.
“He asked to meet up for a coffee. I thought he missed me. Even if it was just for a few minutes between projects, I thought he had done it so he could spend a bit of time with me. I’m so stupid.” A sob works its way out and her head falls forward onto our linked hands as she continues in a mumble. “He wasn’t even there for five minutes… Didn’t even order a cup of coffee… ‘Sorry, Nam, but I can’t do this anymore. Let’s break up.’ That was it. Nothing else was said and he was gone. He left.”
“You’re not the stupid one, Namtarn.” I can listen to her complaints and confusion but I can’t stand to hear her belittle herself like that. “In no way does loving someone or trusting them make you stupid. If anything, I have to question the sanity of Ai’Jay for leaving someone as amazing as you.”
“You really think I’m amazing?” Raising her head off our hands, she looks up at with watery, wide eyes. Even if it wasn’t the truth, I’d have a hard time saying otherwise and watching that bit of hope die away.
“Of course, I do.” Reaching over with my other hand, I push some strands of hair away from her face, tucking them behind her ear. “You’re smart, talented, sweet, and beautiful. Haven’t I always said that no one can compare to you so why bother dating?”
“I always thought you were just saying that for fun.” Namtarn sits up a little straighter, the tears almost disappearing as she stares at me. I’m not sure what is going through her head but her look is making me a bit uncomfortable. “It wasn’t just sweet talk?”
“It was sweet talk, but you should know by now that I won’t say something I don’t mean. If I say you’re amazing, it’s because I really think you’re amazing.” Her look gets more intense with my words and it’s freaking me out a bit. Pulling my hands back, I take a long drink of my pink milk, finishing what’s left in the glass. Setting it aside, I look back at her with my most cocky grin. “Plus, you have amazing taste in friends.”
“I always wished I could feel as comfortable with Jay as I do with you, Oon.” The strange look on Namtarn’s face remains but her eyes soften as she looks at me. “There’s no one I trust more than you. Thanks for always being there for me.”
“Anytime, Namtarn.” Standing up, I wave the server over and pay the bill. “I need to get going. There’s an unfinished essay sitting on my desk waiting for me. Are you going to be alright?”
“Thanks to you, I’ll be fine.” Her smile seems a bit off but it’s probably from the emotional turmoil left by Jay. Standing up, she takes a few steps and trips over a chair leg. Namtarn gives a startled yelp as she falls into me, almost knocking me over too.
Just as I’m about to ask if she’s hurt, I feel warm hands slide up the front of my shirt and knot themselves in my collar. My arms tighten in surprise, pressing the curves of her body into mine and I gasp at the contact. I feel her tug on my collar, pulling my head down and those full rose-tinted lips brush against mine in the barest flutter of a kiss. Her small pink tongue peeks out to wet her lips before she presses them firmly against mine again.
I freeze with my eyes wide open. This can’t be happening. It can’t. This is Namtarn. She’s Jay’s girlfriend. She can’t be kissing me right now. I don’t know what to do!
A slow heat unfurls and I find myself responding for the barest second at the end of the kiss. My eyes dip close and I breathe in her flowery, feminine scent. It was a kiss I used to dream about and it was just as sweet as I expected it to be.
At the end, she loosens her grip and rests her head on my chest as her arms slide around my waist. I hear a contented sigh that’s muffled by the fabric of my shirt. For a little while, I just stand there with my eyes closed and absorb the feeling of having her in my arms. As nice as it feels, it still doesn’t feel right. It should be a perfect moment but it’s not. Opening my eyes, I start to pull back my arms when I catch sight of the person standing just outside.
“Kong…” His name is barely a whisper, not loud enough for anyone to hear, even the person in my arms. The person my boyfriend just saw me kiss. I can feel the color drain from my face as I stare back at him. The anguish in his eyes stabs my heart and all of my guilt bleeds out to torture me. He doesn’t say a word. There’s only silence as he turns away from me and walks off.
“Kongpob!” My shout startles Namtarn who steps back to look around in confusion, but it doesn’t stop my boyfriend’s feet. He doesn’t even pause as I watch him walk further away until he turns a corner. The pain in my chest has me dropping into the nearest chair as I gasp for a breath. It’s too much. Even tears elude me. I can only rasp out one question that is beating at my brain. “What have I done?”
No one is allowed to kill me for this. No mobs trying to find me.
No hits out on me. No throwing hate around like its candy on Valentines.
I promise this is not the end.
Having said that, lets hear your thoughts on the new chapter. What did you think?